I guess I'll just drop, again. Not so much so literally.
Well, I don't know what's wrong with getting "Italian" on your genealogy because it seems some of it came to Europe some time less ago. I kept thinking it was worse than being non-European. I heard it was from other countries, which is interesting to the nature of it. I know Italy is mixed with German, like other countries. People think it's something they have that is better in European.
I think I am weary and will go to bed, too.
I'm sure others are not fessing up and are ransacking around. I don't think all Italians are just bad people. They may be part Middle Eastern but don't have the culture, like Americans.
I do like Italian, though. I just don't think I impose on others, in any way. I also "mind my own business."
The attractive Italians can seem so wrapped up in their culture like the very Asian Japanese.
I'm getting sore, good night. It might be time, anyway.
Tuesday, September 10, 2024
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No Busy Schedule "With" Others
The fact I get enough Social Security money a month to "barely get by" means that, at one of those minimum wage type jobs, I will only be working part time, unless there's a special situation. I'm taking the bus, though. Anyway, no busy schedule for me. I'm practicing violin to get in an orchestra and do a good job etc.
Nurses
Why are the nurses focusing on me more in their evil ways? They act like I am bad and deserve to be hospitalized under them, like "it's my life."
The World Is Not to Be Trusted
At a cute booth at a mall, I caught a female worker, maybe slightly obese, acting like I should suffer and being annoying, in the end, that her job is trash because it's about selling cute stuffed animals to people like me, people who weren't rich but didn't seem to have to work a lot. I say the boss who tries to act innocent is responsible for indulging them.
I applied to work at the cute gift shop at Cracker Barrel and should get hired because I like to work and, of course, appreciate the shop and the job.
"The American Dream"
Maybe, people shouldn't be allowed to move on socially and culturally in "the American Dream," if there is no better future for me ... for the children in a certain way etc. The children in Cleveland are a weapon, in that they are the priority.
Tools
People act like Barb like me being fed is just their accomplishment and not something necessary for me to do myself.
Also, no, you've been getting paid to do this.
Work for Generation Y
Remember, when people acted like they were guilty doing shit jobs? Now, they are the whole world on their shit and complaints about life that seem to reverberate and comfort them to make.
Meanwhile...
I thought I saw Andre Rieu saying it was "a joy" and effortless to give pleasure to a brat.
I'm put in a cardboard box and told to reflect on the fact he will die over the course of over a year.
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So, good people like me are building up a better feeling by learning sadness, in this way?
Unfair Life
Is Andre Rieu playing with a bug but "at this point?" I made Ohio responsible. Why am I encouraged to feel bad about Baby Boomers being old and dying sooner than me? Everyone else is just complaining.
I guess everyone else is having a feast and allowed in church.
Shit!
I think that all the shit goes to me.
Do people go around complaining about people who do a good job?
Florida
What if Floridians couldn't talk to Europeans because of the climate?
That would eliminate the supposed accidents that Barb made it so I couldn't have an infinitely pleasurable life because of Andre Rieu in a certain way ... and from before that that Joni / her presence made it so I couldn't mate Andre Rieu when he flirts outside of his wife, Marjorie, who is older.
Overall, I was unable to do it or anything in the past. Ask his orchestra, they agree with the fact that I was an adamant fan of Andre Rieu who couldn't enjoy it in private. Well, that's one less fan as an issue for some people to look at.
Clever "College Career"
Most people as people are innovative about college and work.
My college programs themselves combined were an innovative combination without being a pile of PhD's, even.
The ideal so far is
Loyola University New Orleans
Bachelor of Music - Violin Performance
My program was
Loyola University New Orleans
Bachelor of Music Education - Vocal/Choral
Bachelor of Music Education - Instrumental
Minor - Ballet
Major Instrument - Piano
Secondary Instrument - Organ
My desired program was
Loyola University New Orleans
Bachelor of Music - Piano Performance
Bachelor of Music - Organ Performance
Bachelor of Music - Vocal Performance
(Bachelor of Music Education - General)
Bachelor of Music Education - Vocal/Choral
Bachelor of Music Education - Instrumental
Minor - Ballet
My Potential
I found that I wasn't completely uglier than all Late Baby Boomers. I guess when I was allowed to eat what I wanted more, I got a little healthier. Some of the exercise changed helped.
So, the supposition in the topic is that I look more like a traditional European, and the rest have this mold that seems to flourish in America. The thing is, however, they start off looking like children who are featured as liking candy and being cute in this way. You have to build as an offshoot of that, not just mold yourself. Anyway, it is irrelevant to anyone in my generation because none of us know anything about what older generations grew to have known.
Job Applied For
I applied to work in "retail" at Cracker Barrel, or at the shop, the nice, little gift shop!
Monday, September 9, 2024
Cleveland Is Unpopular
Dear Wisconsin, Minnesota, the West-Midwest...
I wonder if Cleveland doesn't want to be popular. If they were smarter, it would sound like they were saying, "Do you think I care about you?" They're saying that anything I do that's attractive doesn't matter because they didn't do it. "Boy!" must they be ugly, then!
Feeling Peace and Comfort
I wanted to take a nap, but I know it's only peaceful after supper.
Here are some pictures of people sleeping, who feel either peaceful or not.
Being Babyish
Why is it going around that it's easier for humans who have non-White blood to have been "all that" and that they deserve nothing ... say a Generation XY person unless they seem like Tim Burton? or Andre Rieu?
"It would be a pleasure." "Grace me with your presence."
What do you think Andre Rieu could do for other people who get claimed to be "European" and me not?
Why do people need Andre Rieu, in particular though, if they're all "all that?" That wouldn't mean you'd argue that would mean in Europe I'd pop up as a need.
You might say hey look Andre Rieu did a lot for Christina and it was at great "expense" though. He gets sexual gratification out of giving pleasure to and loving young European girls, like everyone believes I'm the problem like I'm a witch, as well as not European in the end mixed anyway while White all along.
So, my question is that we're all still alive and not blind mostly etc. nor too fat to ever have a life like a clinical case, for example, etc. etc., nor dying soon from a disease. So, technically, we're all able to "win" as a "package deal."
My dad wanted someone pretty so dated Asians through the mail. Otherwise, someone else would win. So, what do you do, now?
I guess you could "fart" along and say at least it's convenient when he comes across some other girl who's all European that it's easy to get pleasure out of giving to them. I guess I was right that it's easy to affect a younger person and make them feel love and pleasure and sex etc., too! Anyway, I already said I think, like ... well, I should be seen as coming with a group of other girls, anyway- So, it's pointless to sit there and come up with a bunch of, like, riddles as to if it would be more pleasant to be with one younger girl longer than another, alone, but to infinity or absoluteness. Do you "just do that" to anyone? What would it mean to consider it, "to a degree" and for certain reasons? I think it's a bigger problem. It's something the whole world is dealing with, the problem of their youth and blaming people who are "better." So, it's a part of life. It's something to look forward to debating over.
Inheriting Racial "Genetic Makeup"
Lazy People
Do these people expect to "fart" and lay around and become something? Because I sit here and fight and react to their mental bull crap.
Incident
He could tell what I was thinking before, having fun thinking about Andre Rieu and his girls, his "musicians," etc.
I saw him in his office and could tell he thought that there would be no more me seeming impressive, like saying he's been "building" himself being Asiatic to be as impressive as he is.
I thought of the supposed young men from Italy involved with the monitoring me in private. It seems as though people of less popular ethnicities or even races see me as one of them, "all in all," and that I'm an opportunity to total believing, however, that gives every single one of them the only one who has everything I've tried to accomplish in how I feel and think as a person and therefore who could have become interested in me.
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I guess I'll go to an activity in the nursing home at 10:30 A.M. It's called "Music and Motion." I have physical therapy at 11 A.M., probably. I have to put on my makeup, and contacts. I guess I'll take a shower after lunch, which is around 12 A.M.
It sounds like I might not get free transportation to the movies, so I may wait to ask. I may call Legal Aid Society for a heads up on if the apartments don't respond. I also need to ask about money since I didn't get to build savings. Homeless shelters give free rent for the first month at apartments and furniture. I'm in a nursing home, since the homeless shelters were probably full during a power outage while I was at the hospital...
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I just put my laundry away.
I'm hoping to take a shower soon.
I need to clean my water jug and ask to get it filled with ice! + cold water.