Tuesday, September 17, 2024
Andre Rieu - Concert - Notes
September 15, 2024 (Sunday)
Do you think he wants to get other people to do what he does with him? I guess that would sorta "get it over with." Anyone could guess or figure that out yet not say something about it anywhere and maybe not even let anyone know. He could still be "top dog" and the "main man?"
It looked exciting in this audience. They weren't rude and stuck up. They weren't especially expressive, though. That's the Spanish for you, in Latin America.
The soloist in the royal blue dress, Christina, a cute and beautiful Greek girl, is really doing good. Her voice is resonating well.
The soloist with the bleached hair and red and yellow checkered skirt and royal blue shawl is from the Ukraine. I met a blonde with tan skin from the Ukraine in both the last and present nursing home I'm in, not nurses though. One was a helper and one was a physical therapist. Both are young and mature. I think the last one had brown eyes and seemed older and this one probably blue eyes. Both were a bit chubby, too. Very sweet! This singer is more frail.
The American soloist with bleached hair seems to be getting a lot of pity, now, but it's like other people with Dutch influence or heritage are wondering why I don't suffer whatever happened to other Americans, per chance. Like, maybe they themselves should look at themselves, as I wanted to be in Europe myself, was looking at Germany for a long time, aiming for it without looking must be over half my life.
Andre Rieu seems preoccupied. I don't ask for much. I wonder what he's up to. He seems hungry for sex.
The strings were amplifying well, in part of the end sections.
When Andre Rieu led the girl on the side out once he did it with a lot of "love" and feeling and pleasure, like he was leading Christine as the Phantom. Also, I know everyone is ready to act unimpressed and say they didn't get something so couldn't seem as amazing for the moment, which would lead to better things.
Nursing Home - Bowling
I asked who would put up the pins and ended up doing them, got a workout! Also, the lady in charge's glasses fell apart and kept falling off... I told her I'd do them several times... I seem to look a lot skinnier now, after the exercises, too.
https://youtube.com/shorts/8gXximmUSlo?si=v4Zb-y3-wAMcx92V
Question
I typed this out awhile ago.
Why is everyone always embarrassing me and wasting time time when I explain shit to them?
Slide Right in in Life
It was more that attractive Baby Boomers and probably other Baby Boomers and older people have it for them to set or "laid out" that will get pleasure. It seems like they just slide right into it without a problem. I've been beaten around the bush about their dying and me looking forward to things I don't like, like I can't survive when I can, socially too.
Worsen Lives
Do you think that the people who acted like I was nice and then punished me will have their lives worsen or go down a step, like this and in other ways that seem to have happened to me socially?
You know, people who seem to be involved with Andre Rieu, which doesn't seem to be his musicians, who seem to think they can tell other people like me what to do.
African Americans
Why don't you let these shitty African Americans control the social lives of other young White Americans girls?
"Floridians..." and Andre Rieu?
I bet "Floridians" like to act like they know everything to "get the better of" Andre Rieu.
Problems
Andre Rieu's music people etc. shouldn't be taking up his concern and over me since acting like I'm in trouble with him. I'm just going to "ignore" this bull shit.
"This Just In"
Via the people working in the nursing home, I heard that I'm a joke after people pretending like I'm in Andre Rieu's music group.
I also heard I have to submit to people I don't want to, though I know I can be alone.
Baby Boomers Get Pleasure Later
Did you notice Baby Boomers, at least some, are getting excited I'm projecting or could be now about getting pleasure? but I'm not older and feel like "life" is ending?
If you want to know my real backup plan, it's to get graduate degrees in Music Education and the undergraduate degree hopefully sometime and use it to do research and I guess write books etc. and maybe work in administration etc. I figure when I'm old I won't want some things I used to, as Baby Boomers probably die before me if nothing big happens in anyone's life.
Punchline
Can you imagine everyone being like me feeling doped and punished feeling "hung over" like they are being punished by Andre Rieu for no reason but ultimately? staring in front of the internet on their little Google Chromebook, again? for $100, feeling old.
💔 Feeling Hurt
I feel hurt by all the meanness done to me.
I've been a good fan of Andre Rieu, and I feel like people think I did something wrong. They'll notice I was just punished for something embarrassing, getting attention. Also, they seemed to think I was a good person, yesterday. Now, they think I am stupid and ugly. I wasn't stupid, I'm strangely informed.
I just don't feel that much. Sometimes now, yes, in some ways to some degree.
Nursing Home Drama - Nice Man...
An old man in the physical therapy "gym" in the nursing home looked at a lady in there, who's rather obese, who seems to be from the Cleveland area and acted like he couldn't be okay at night just looking at her and what she did, to me.
Dreams
I had this horrid dream. I let my mom or got my mom to carry me around the mall, and it felt like I dreamed this for 15 minutes. I was huge and age 38, like I am in real life. I also had my dad carry me and felt more cozy, this time. It was like an excuse, as it wasn't fun anymore, for Andre Rieu to carry me, unless Pierre Rieu the issue of me set him off...
My mom said she was doing yoga and kept spinning around dancing beautifully in Asian. I took a photo of a mirage of a phoenix coming with her also looking and talking. One seemed clearer later and she didn't see. In real life, she's passed away and it's harder to really remember her, now.
I think earlier in a different sleep I dreamed about buying pots and pans and looked for what seemed like an hour and couldn't find a set of pots. I wanted a pink set of fans. Thinking back, it feels like Andre Rieu helped me or oversaw, with some other people. I remember going back and saying I want pink. It was huge, you know like Wal-Mart, which in real life a lot of people just seem excited about or younger kids having their "ducks in a row" now.
Music
I listened to this yesterday and am still listening to the last one.
September 9, 2024 - Electric Light Orchestra - in Canada
Something Happening in "Life"
Dear Journal, so, now, I know Andre Rieu is mad and protecting his son from me, who is maybe 3 years older, his youngest son, because of a sentence that stood out on the page I said. I had been defending him and caring about him and "taking" him. So, he's been rather antisocial and even frustratingly or hidden-ly or racially snide with me. I guess that's okay. So, I said he's not as good as others, I think, because of his race and added three periods at the end. In the context of me defending him, it makes sense, but I guess they just look at this one sentence.
Anyway, people are mean to me and make excuses. So, people aren't wondering anything beyond this one sentence, now, like what I meant or how I am usually. He must be sensitive to the race itself and not feel like an individual with part of that race. That's understandable as I'm used to my mom being totally of another race and being disconnected, and Jewish people have more in common, at least racially, with Europeans. In fact, they may be technically the same "race" and need to stop whining to me, in the way that they do. I have the right to be as white, and Jews overall, many, don't understand that.
Anyway, I also don't think Asians are better and never thought Jewish people were bad, of course, but who does? I'm pretty mad the people, I know, in the nursing home are "getting away with it," making fun of Pierre Rieu and Jewish people in secret message, I can tell what they say by listening to their distant voices, unfortunately, where I can't "make out" the words and the constant coughs of a man here etc., somewhere outside my door. It was blatant and obvious in message, and I feel blamed for not reading the context of the sentence and the three dots at the end indicating I didn't explain it in full. I guess I forgot I did that. It's another big mistake. I was fed up with him, honestly, acting so quiet and like ha ha I sit with my father are you embarrassed... feeling bad and not doped out in fun. No one was being nice with me and talking much, so. I wasn't first. They were being mean to me. I thought it was funny to make them feel shocked. I didn't mean anything much against him. It just stands out. Many people are mean and don't make sense.
Anyway, people are mean to me and make excuses. So, people aren't wondering anything beyond this one sentence, now, like what I meant or how I am usually. He must be sensitive to the race itself and not feel like an individual with part of that race. That's understandable as I'm used to my mom being totally of another race and being disconnected, and Jewish people have more in common, at least racially, with Europeans. In fact, they may be technically the same "race" and need to stop whining to me, in the way that they do. I have the right to be as white, and Jews overall, many, don't understand that.
Anyway, I also don't think Asians are better and never thought Jewish people were bad, of course, but who does? I'm pretty mad the people, I know, in the nursing home are "getting away with it," making fun of Pierre Rieu and Jewish people in secret message, I can tell what they say by listening to their distant voices, unfortunately, where I can't "make out" the words and the constant coughs of a man here etc., somewhere outside my door. It was blatant and obvious in message, and I feel blamed for not reading the context of the sentence and the three dots at the end indicating I didn't explain it in full. I guess I forgot I did that. It's another big mistake. I was fed up with him, honestly, acting so quiet and like ha ha I sit with my father are you embarrassed... feeling bad and not doped out in fun. No one was being nice with me and talking much, so. I wasn't first. They were being mean to me. I thought it was funny to make them feel shocked. I didn't mean anything much against him. It just stands out. Many people are mean and don't make sense.
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