Something Happening in "Life"

Dear Journal, so, now, I know Andre Rieu is mad and protecting his son from me, who is maybe 3 years older, his youngest son, because of a sentence that stood out on the page I said.  I had been defending him and caring about him and "taking" him.  So, he's been rather antisocial and even frustratingly or hidden-ly or racially snide with me.  I guess that's okay.  So, I said he's not as good as others, I think, because of his race and added three periods at the end.  In the context of me defending him, it makes sense, but I guess they just look at this one sentence.

Anyway, people are mean to me and make excuses.  So, people aren't wondering anything beyond this one sentence, now, like what I meant or how I am usually.  He must be sensitive to the race itself and not feel like an individual with part of that race.  That's understandable as I'm used to my mom being totally of another race and being disconnected, and Jewish people have more in common, at least racially, with Europeans.  In fact, they may be technically the same "race" and need to stop whining to me, in the way that they do.  I have the right to be as white, and Jews overall, many, don't understand that.

Anyway, I also don't think Asians are better and never thought Jewish people were bad, of course, but who does?  I'm pretty mad the people, I know, in the nursing home are "getting away with it," making fun of Pierre Rieu and Jewish people in secret message, I can tell what they say by listening to their distant voices, unfortunately, where I can't "make out" the words and the constant coughs of a man here etc., somewhere outside my door.  It was blatant and obvious in message, and I feel blamed for not reading the context of the sentence and the three dots at the end indicating I didn't explain it in full.  I guess I forgot I did that.  It's another big mistake.  I was fed up with him, honestly, acting so quiet and like ha ha I sit with my father are you embarrassed... feeling bad and not doped out in fun.  No one was being nice with me and talking much, so.  I wasn't first.  They were being mean to me.  I thought it was funny to make them feel shocked.  I didn't mean anything much against him.  It just stands out.  Many people are mean and don't make sense.