Nursing Hime Supper Dessert
Sunday, September 15, 2024
"My Life"
So, like before, for instance displayed and active in form in Orlando, I don't have to talk to other people my age bothering me, and Cleveland doesn't need to whip by with its fake facade like it's gonna stay as more attractive.
Mixed Race Is Unfair
So, Pierre Rieu gets it as a "mixed race" and not me, but it's not fair and it's not because I did anything wrong.
Andre Rieu...
What is Andre Rieu saying now in his point that before I was welcome with open arms, but now I caught 1 message so far that says I shouldn't say anything because I'm not a Baby Boomer or attractive Generation XY or not a nice/smart Generation XY. He says, like if I post something online, it says I'm good at writing but not a sexual person. That's not true, or else I wouldn't know all this. I had a desire. Others expressed zero desire.
"Positive Affirmation"
Florida says I can follow my dreams.
New Orleans says I should be complimented.
Up North...
I'm glad I moved Up North for the spirit of the weather, but I'm not impressed. I'm not for things like maybe it's about how you think in this way like it's so "fascinating" and something disgusting to reveal in, like a horny fingernail or toenail on a girl today or "young adult."
Hollywood 'Through the Years"
Hollywood seems to have went backwards. They stopped when Tim Burton got a simple Italian set designer, for Sweeney Todd. They are going back to dig in the dirt. You know, like those ghost stories?
"Up North?"
People in Cleveland may have a lot of thoughts, but they act like they have to be "all that." I think they are just jealous of normal places like Florida that they may call "modern" because they themselves are "backwards" in certain ways.
Am I in a Low Social Position?
I'm I joining "the lowest of the low" in "bowing down to" others, now, in ways I wouldn't, otherwise, which are significant?
Half Asian Girls
Half European half Asian girls don't get "stolen" by Americans if their European parent is from Europe.
Photo - Family - Relatives
This is a nice picture of my dad's youngest sister and her lovely daughter who has French and Italian and maybe something else.
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November 18, 2023
Well, her daughter is pretty and looking pretty good. She would be popular if she lived in New Orleans, now. I wonder if the mom is health-conscious.
Music
I listened to this music, yesterday, and am finishing the last one.
French Group in Paris?
August 21, 2024 - BBC Proms - Royal Albert Hall - London, England | UK - Aurora Orchestra - National Youth Choir of Great Britain and the BBC Singers
April 14, 2024 - Michigan
Saturday, September 14, 2024
Groceries
I got 3 boxes of Nature Valley granola bars, good stuff, with the peanut cream, caramel, etc.
I might need more healthy food... I also got 3 bags of 50 multiple cheese pizza rolls and 2 boxes of 4 spicy chicken sandwiches.
No glazed donuts.
I don't know if anyone here now knows how to use the microwave downstairs. I don't want to order DoorDash, but supper is spaghetti. I have a $40 application fee for an apartment I need to fill out an application for hopefully for Monday.
Blacks vs. Whites
I decided I am nicer to Blacks when both Whites and Blacks are around because I think when I was like 7 years old I decided deep down I would never be mean to someone who is not treated that they are White.
However, around Whites I am more polite.
Conundrum, Comments, Critiques
I told a lady at the desk downstairs I was gonna go to a White person who works here and say what are you doing to the Black people working here, they seem to be in a bad mood and the older African American ladies are here today and really hurt me with the noises and it's just that I'm sensitive to noises and they didn't break any rules or anything. She really wanted to know who it was, said to ask my nurse to see a supervisor and asked who my nurse was, and said it was my home and I should be happy here. She was shorter than me, bleached hair, light bright blue eyes, a little more obese than me, and probably German American. I fixed myself up for her but looked hurt. I felt closed up being from Orlando, though could communicate, still. I relayed I was just "different" but "special," an old German American sentiment at least popular around 2005, sometime.
Racism...
Do you think White people want Black people? Black people are being mean to me for White people, even especially older women in the nursing home maybe, who work here.
Listening to Music
I'm listening to recent orchestral music and making a playlist and will post what I've been listening to.
Andre Rieu...
Something I already had in common with Andre Rieu is not liking the autistic-ly advanced feeling of most orchestras today, led by both young and older conductors.
Something different is wondering if people wanted to "make it big" in some way as much as him regarding exactly what they do technically, not focusing on them as people expecting themselves to be more and blaming it all on others and being mean to me etc.
Question
If it doesn't bother other people why I had problems getting the right foods and having space to exercise, too shy to come out of my room when I came home from college, why has this all been about me being picked on for how I look still and how I get prevented from looking how I want?
film|boards
film|boards post by me
It's about people who framed me.
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Margaret said because when I was in the other class in 6th grade, we had a project and "out of nowhere" I didn't wait for her she acted traumatized and absolutely upset with me. Since then… Also, in the car on the way home from the last day of school I tried to make a joke typical of her and my other friends and said about our T-shirts that said "Catholic Schools - Schools You Can Believe In" "at least I don't go around giving false messages." She acted like there was something wrong with me since then, too. She didn't talk to me and looked away and didn't answer when I spoke waiting after school every day. When we visited when I moved, she wouldn't talk to me and then focused on playing with my younger brother. She got mad at me and made me mad, somehow. I slammed the door by accident when her mom was downstairs with my mom, and her mom wouldn't come back again and still was distant and had to be careful around me so Margaret wouldn't be jealous.
My younger brother new my parents were set up to make a nice environment when I got in some good Talented Arts and Gifted classes at age 16 in high school and was at a nice ballet school sorta. He seemed frantic. I played at church they year before and didn't have time to stay up on Saturdays watching movies with him, which were cool but still "suck"-y. He never talked much to me but was upset. So, he got a dog and said it was because he liked watching movies about boys with dogs. It was a golden retriever. We had to build a fence. Slowly, until now my life has wound down the drain. He also made the decision not to give me my money.. making excuses. Also, he didn't take care of the dog later on when my mom said and it slept in my parent's room for years. My mom cared for it and it died when I had to watch it outside in the sun.
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I just sent a bunch of friend requests on Facebook and am going back to bed, feeling sore and low on energy now.
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