Nursing Home Breakfast
Wednesday, September 25, 2024
Tuesday, September 24, 2024
Song
This sounds good, very romantic and "sad" and "gay" and giddy in interpretation.
44:19 - "With a Smile and a Song" from Snow White
Monday, September 23, 2024
Other People
I don't "suck," like other people. No one seems affected by my suffering. They'll just admit how trashy they are.
Pierre
Is it more my life as a challenge to see him in different ways? Maybe, I would moreso anyway if you tore him away from his dad, sometime...
Pierre
I guess I don't want to do his son in the way he seems to be sometimes.
So, what, I didn't do anything to hurt him and he acts strange and unusual around me.
Pierre and Anti-Racism for Others
Why is Pierre so obsessed with WWI and WWII if they're over? He's suggesting it as intelligent to say Germans etc. are mean because of the past, but many aren't Nazis!!! They're all racist, anyway. He doesn't want to discuss racism with me. Pretty much, they think he doesn't act European, but I agree he is that way on purpose. I think he wants to be both ways, but he's not especially less European in his desires compared to other people of any race. People who "feel" they are all White react a certain way out of being less "good." You can get over that part. I don't know what he thinks, like most brainwashed minority concerns.
Duty
I washed my trays with little containers, late last night.
When I order my groceries, I have to bring my cutting board and soft knife downstairs and spray for produce (vegetables and fruits) and clean the produce and cut a little of it and put it in the containers.
Sunday, September 22, 2024
Logistics?
So, anyone who says they are "good" to Joni is dishonest? Unless they are like the Gabby girls or some other attractive person you accept?
Question
I was wondering. Who put my mom up against Joni and Andre? I'm here to tell you there are other nicer people in the world.
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I showered and combed my hair and am having my 1/2 gallon jug of ice and water.
If I buy something might be eye drops just to be nice and anyway wanted some before and later.
Late Baby Boomer Females and Generation XYZA
Does it make you sick the way Late Baby Boomer females look at Generation XYZA children? Like, "Oh, look at the legs, from dance, they can't even-"
I know I say it and it "goes over people's heads," but if someone else said it who was also attractive and so on you'd take it seriously and it'd matter and be interesting and things would light up again now.
Also, we need to see why France doesn't "do" anything.
Popularity?
If people think I looked so good, why didn't they try hard to respect me to get popular? I don't think it's anything to do with me, due to what I do in regards to having Asian genes.
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I feel sorta drowsy for some reason.
I shouldn't have to do all this work to fix my life... from the problems others gave me.
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I think the African American and adopted Japanese/Korean? girl in Norway are trying to stir something by being mean to me, while the Whites ignore me.
Tired
My foot/ankle/leg is tired after putting the laundry away, maybe too tired for a shower then church.
I might post online a bit, even eat more, then go to bed.
Question
The people monitoring me in private want to know why Andre Rieu, as I said, is attractive, but people can still look him in the eye for his life experience?
Shit
Boy, Ohio sure is shit. They are no party. Life is already work and not much in it.
They should get their head out of the nature of Asian people and their being correct and intelligent and learn to cook their own food! Proves I'm better. They're too lazy and guilt-ridden to cook the food Asians found to make. There are lots of interest ones of course not in restaurants, lots of seafood of weird animals.
Also, why do you expect people to be so attractive you can't look at them anyway or else they're not good enough for you? You can still talk to them.. They need to talk to other people. Also, why would you start noticing that in others and not me? and people I like that you found out about?
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Sorry, I meant that I'm not too fat to be more un-relate-able than most people for no good reason.
"I'll start."
So! I'll go first. Do you think Margaret Campo had a good time?
Also, I'm "reasonably" attractive overall, enough to talk to. Fit, not too far. What dummy would avert me?
My Time
Why am I wasting my time being treated like a criminal when I could be enjoying myself and solving problems?
Discussion of Joni
So, what do you know about Joni, that's not like a precious secret I know from visiting her?
Being White or Joni
Why should I let you slide by in every way if you're white if you're not as attractive as Joni?
Hollywood and Dance
Who cares what Hollywood thinks? They are eyes glued to the girls who did dance from age 3.
Joni to "Pursue"
Now, Joni isn't as contained. I have to track traces of her down in other people to attack.
"Cleveland" and Joni?...
I think Cleveland really is just helping Joni but that they're not good enough to have anything to do with her and are pretty bad and in certain ways now.
Ignored
Why pay attention to or talk to anyone at this nursing home? Even the ugly ones are all about Joni.
I don't need to care.
I don't need to worry about people anymore.
My roommate has on church talking or something, and I just realized all this shit they do all they care about is Joni.
People Being "Better" Than Other People and Things in the World
When I was "better," say for me that seemed like more childlike and European, no one set me apart, like they do with people like Joni and Gabby. The people monitoring me in private using Ellen since 2012 have been trying to knock me out not to be as amazing, and other things happened because of the people monitoring me in private. Ellen did it on purpose for this reason.
Andre and Joni
I woke up and everyone was talking and making up stuff about Joni and Andre. Why should I waste any of my time on shit like this?
Saturday, September 21, 2024
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I had a granola bar.
Then, I had 3 kinds of Triscuits, including an old-tasting fresh mozzarella "cheese stick."
Andre Rieu
The Greek guy I saw seems to think it's not fair between the countries of Southern Europe, pray tell what that means for the rest of it.
Andre Rieu is really getting into it, and the musicians or some can be rude. So what if I said something smart? that I say something and someone else saying it would matter more. These are bigger things than "Andre Rieu is really sexy." We all know that? Say something!
It was nice to see the orchestra with Andre Rieu leading etc. walking to the concert.
She acts expressive and knows I would try to say what it means. She says, "Say Frilly and you don't sing." Andre Rieu praises her, but it doesn't mean he means what she says applies... and to me.
So, Ashley, and Barb, like to post and not respond, especially not to me. I can live with people and talk to them and not just be famous. They don't tell other people to bow down to them like they tell me to bow down to Ashley, Barb, etc. The Gabby girls probably don't experience being told to bow down to Ashley and Barb, though they probably make them feel belittled, as well. Maybe, they are perfect, though. They may not be as good as pleasure gets, but still.
His orchestra even bows down to Ashley.. 😳
Shopping
I bought coral and light bluish green glitter liquid eyeshadow and a clapper, to come in Monday.
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That Kamala
(So, you were supposed to notice she is the age to be the parents of younger kids, like Obama was. At least, she's as good as his generation was!
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Andre Rieu
I notice the candles are "especially" pretty! 😍 I also like this singer.
This is another French background, Eiffel. Andre Rieu really seems to care about her getting up the ladder and making it and living- "Need I say more?" He seems endearing to her feeling French after the Dutch all think they are better yet disregard me, the one who agreed to this. Those little girls in that country around him at various events who grew up in Maastricht.
You know, the Latin Americans "secretly" come there to judge the music but know they are "on top of the world," you might say, even to Andre's sentiment, usually, unless you think it was Italy, too/more.
Feeling Dirty
Why am I hot and cool and sweating? I need a shower, too. I shower, twice a day. I just showered last night. Some people in the nursing home, maybe many, don't shower every day. Older people may be like that.
Dream
I was in a church like the one in Slidell and Altamonte Springs. I dreamed Petra Mullejans came out of the hospital and picked me up and I felt love.
Lunch
I got Pizza Hut!
My sugar was 165, after a crazy dream... I made myself see thing sloppily, they didn't come and appear to me.
I feel sorry for all the kids who can't get Pizza Hut and around the world.
Friday, September 20, 2024
Andre Rieu...
I'm tired about guessing about Andre Rieu and him not affording a camera to take a selfie without the help of lots of other men.
Sad
I usually feel better in bed, but I couldn't do cardio/dance, today, neither. I also didn't exercise much, had counseling, the physical therapy. I need to get outta here. I might get out of physical therapy, now...
Andre Rieu...
Is Andre Rieu using the excuse I had to work to pay my debt to cut me off and leave me wondering, with everyone around me flocking...? They're already bothering me.
Andre Rieu...
Last 2 nights I slept during Andre Rieu, at least most of it. It seems the crew isn't posting tonight at some random, like he's off limits to anyone but Marjorie.
Andre Rieu...
Andre Rieu is actually around people ... and I'm sorta averted.
It seems someone else is always there, though.
Andre Rieu...
Why is Andre Rieu given other women chance? He says if I slip up like it's over or maybe I'm in trouble. Nothing big even happened, except the topic was important which no one cares about.
Dating
I wonder how I can find a husband, if I don't do dating. I can arrange without "marriage." I mean I do do dating, but that stuff doesn't seem to have been working out without money and it might be hard to find the right site or just use Tinder...
Andre Rieu...
If Andre Rieu doesn't keep his promise to be my friend and/or "lover," I should hook up with some young dude and have a daughter, like the cute ones in Germany and France I posted somewhere.. and even if he did I should or could be able to. He loves kids...
Andre Rieu...
So, Andre Rieu and people are praising others, such as his orchestra and singers, and rubbing in to me than I'm not Andre Rieu.
I know Andre Rieu loves me.
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Asians - Segregation
How can you tell if an Asian is going to sorta suck some feelings outta you by duping you or convincing you to rearrange your face, etc.?
I know I watched an animation where I felt different after. All of a sudden, Sanrio was in it and it was to classical music, like a lot of this movie, A Journey Through Fairyland.
Also, a Korean girl 2 years and 1 grade older who came here sometime, maybe South, kept talking to me like I needed a more natural face, though hers was very big and eyes very squinted. She was short, it seemed.. I was in Talented Music 1 year and the teacher and her both were violin. Next year, I was alone and gonna learn singing and then she came and the teacher stopped. Helped ruin my life. Also, my face looked different. I was trying to diet, too! I gained weight when I was hungry probably when my gifted / advanced placement American History teacher who was French probably caused me to get called to the counselor and fall behind in classes.
How can you tell if an Asian is going to sorta suck some feelings outta you by duping you or convincing you to rearrange your face, etc.?
I know I watched an animation where I felt different after. All of a sudden, Sanrio was in it and it was to classical music, like a lot of this movie, A Journey Through Fairyland.
Also, a Korean girl 2 years and 1 grade older who came here sometime, maybe South, kept talking to me like I needed a more natural face, though hers was very big and eyes very squinted. She was short, it seemed.. I was in Talented Music 1 year and the teacher and her both were violin. Next year, I was alone and gonna learn singing and then she came and the teacher stopped. Helped ruin my life. Also, my face looked different. I was trying to diet, too! I gained weight when I was hungry probably when my gifted / advanced placement American History teacher who was French probably caused me to get called to the counselor and fall behind in classes.
Apartment
I didn't find out about the apartment..
They are supposed to contact me, text.. if not, then I will see about going back to the homeless shelter in due time, maybe start Monday then.
Race Based on Migration Patterns and the Sun and Snow...
Well, I may not be as White as African Americans because they were in cold climate longer.
I think Caucasians are just bouncing back and forth between France and Germany/Scandinavia.
Andre Rieu...
Andre Rieu is like Petra and gets mad at me for feeling like he said the things these people say he says all the time.
I have things to do, and one is going to be fighting this. I was gonna get ready for his next tour, come to think of it. I still will.
Pierre
So, what's private? Does Pierre have anything else to do other than being mad about his race to his dad?
Andre Rieu...
I see Pierre, and I said he wasn't his parents, but I guess it's Marjorie "on parade" when you see Pierre.
Is it gonna be important why Andre is always just busy protecting his family and shitting about them with you?
Dancers
Dancers don't think I have any talent with muscle or any form of physical fitness next to them.
Bingo
I was checking out the men's hands, and they looked small then big. I was comparing them to my dad.
US
No one cares what I say in Europe cuz my dad is from America, so when I use that side if you count my parents it came from there.
Mixed Race
Men who marry women of other races usually only want one, one pretty one that stands out...
People think mixes are weird for being mixed itself, not for what each race is they have.
Concerned About Andre Rieu and His People
It seems pointless to give him all that attention if it's always about his son.. Anyway, if you wanna know why I said something you need to ask I already explained enough from what you know.
Physical Therapy
I just returned, from physical therapy.
I just lifted weights with my hands and legs.
I might lift in my room after lunch and then go out and about in the nursing home.
I hope I get accepted to the apartment, or else I might start asking about the homeless shelter and going there, I guess October 2nd, as I get my Social Security Survivors Benefits money/"check" in my bank account by the 1st.
Apartment Searching?
If I don't get accepted to that apartment, probably will find out today, I may just go to a homeless shelter at the beginning of October. I have 1 month left, but it seems to hard to get accepted with my credit score, Fair.
Feeling Awake
I feel more awake this morning, may shower and stay up if possible and do an arm weights exercise for like 15 minutes or so.
Feeling Better
I exercised better and slept a lot, and my sore throat is feeling much better.
Today, I may find if I am accepted to the apartment I like and if I am can continue my job search. Otherwise, I'll have to scout around.
Bossiness
Someone who took my blood sugar, young like me, thinks she can boss me around and tell me I'm bad, like she's an adult and I'm a child. "That won't be necessary..."
Beach Blondes in Cleveland
The beach blondes in the Cleveland area are dumb and ditzy and think they can take liberty to do anything.
I just closed my door to annoy people being mean but not in a way they can say, and she tried to sound like she said, "Police." That reminds me of the one in the hospital in December who wouldn't listen when I said I was better and wanted to go home... I would up in the mental hospital and nursing home for 1/2 year.
"Problem Solved"
I ordered a bike horn and bell to annoy the residents and workers of the nursing home, in a civil way so they don't notice. They come Monday, or else I'd have to pay an extra $6.
I'll have to use the horn in my room, possibly with the door closed with my roommate away or awake. I can bring the bell around and see what happens. I'm not sure what else I could get, maybe some sticks or a Christmas bell, though a Christmas bell is too cheery for this.
Andre Rieu...
(38:06 minutes long)
It seems like all of a sudden he's got a lot of young people in it and some of their ego is "out of bounds." Nonetheless, they make bright music, sometimes or rather often. I wonder if they are physically very animate and therefore strong and in good shape.
He shows the orchestra/choir/solo-singers so much love, out of nowhere, with all those young people. He got so animate and dynamic and even "off the wall" in flow, displaying his love, as well. They are so carefree and happy go lucky, without a care in the world. I'm not sure if they try hard to impress or express themselves very much. Maybe, even a handful or a few could be American. I know at least one, a solo singer. She had become a topic of my fascination, even locally.
The soloist near the end in the red dress is so cool!...
Ashley...
My relationship with Ashley, which is that of a distant family, is probably different than that of with her friends and others.
No Joke
I don't think it's a joke to watch me in private like it matters only to abandon that it matters.
Issue
I don't want the reason people question me to be because they "can't believe" I can function and be a good girl, indeed. They don't question everybody else, like this. So, this is what happened when people watched me in private.
Family
It's sorta a family thing. I feel like I've disowned much of my surviving family for only paying attention to and finding cool Joni and Ashley.
Ashley?
Why is Ashley used to make us feel ashamed, ashamed for what especially? Does it bounce back on whoever imposed upon us?
I know people are racist to her, but it's used against me...
I don't like how my family has gotten in my way in the world. Even my parents gave me the silent treatment, and it was like I was trapped like a joke when I came home from college.
Thursday, September 19, 2024
Andre Rieu...
I had a good feeling when the little 16 year old girl who can't "eat..." turned to me like she needed me... It felt like sex, in a good way. I felt it like in the scope of the top to the tuck of my female inners sorta over it. towards the front. I felt like I just looked down and gave her a hug, and it was a little in form like Andre Rieu on the top. Maybe, you can even picture this.
Andre Rieu...
The guest flautist is cute joining the orchestra. It was interesting to catch this dialogue between him and the girl flautist in the orchestra. Of course, people are always having secret exchanges of messages without saying. I said it here, but I don't usually say it but have used it.
Pierre and Andre
So, when Andre insults me because he's "embarrassed" about his son or feels sorry for him, aren't I supposed to have a cozy life in friendship with Pierre Rieu etc.?
Pierre Rieu's Daughters
Pierre Rieu's daughters don't look like him, before you saying his being Jewish can be the excuse.
So, we should work on him.
Dreams
I dreamed in East Cleveland. They supported it.
I dunno about Northwest Cleveland. I did there, too. I went to a nursing home further Northwest Cleveland in a different city, but the nursing home was bad. Now, I'm in the county west, Lorain County. I can still dream and better in some ways.
Still, these dreams were born in Orlando. I just couldn't tell at the time how different it was.
Andre Rieu...
I noticed he actually featured a solo flautist. He probably knows about the flautist I saw who was more attractive than me, and it must represent her.
Andre Rieu...
This was last night in Latin America.
This was a nice video, a bit clear. The boy was cute. The orchestra is in the pits.
Status
I just got back from physical therapy. I did things with weighing down on my arms and legs for, like, 1/2 hour.
I just got my blood sugar tested and will proceed to making my bed soon.
Cheese lasagna for lunch. I'm happy. I forgot to see if I wanted the alternate lunch, which would be egg salad sandwiches.
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I just took a shower and feel and look much better!
I'm changing my bed sheets. I'll put my laundry in. I already am having my comforter and pillowcase washed.
I paid $41/$42 for the application fee for the apartment I like.
Wednesday, September 18, 2024
Annoying
Wow, the people in this Cleveland area, Lorain County, think they can do anything like super powers boasting and trying to scare everyone and acting annoying to me.
Question
Why ever should I care if you or someone doesn't understand what I say?
... You all barely say anything and think everything has a negative connotation.
... You all barely say anything and think everything has a negative connotation.
Anger
I saw a video of someone with Andre Rieu acting threateningly. He "said" I didn't apologize for something "big." It's none of his business snooping especially. He's an accident. I can say whatever I want to say. I didn't hurt anyone. I guess people have to be more careful how they act and talk. So what, they're really racist on purpose all the time. They're judgmental, as well, or used to be.
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