Asians - Segregation
How can you tell if an Asian is going to sorta suck some feelings outta you by duping you or convincing you to rearrange your face, etc.?
I know I watched an animation where I felt different after. All of a sudden, Sanrio was in it and it was to classical music, like a lot of this movie, A Journey Through Fairyland.
Also, a Korean girl 2 years and 1 grade older who came here sometime, maybe South, kept talking to me like I needed a more natural face, though hers was very big and eyes very squinted. She was short, it seemed.. I was in Talented Music 1 year and the teacher and her both were violin. Next year, I was alone and gonna learn singing and then she came and the teacher stopped. Helped ruin my life. Also, my face looked different. I was trying to diet, too! I gained weight when I was hungry probably when my gifted / advanced placement American History teacher who was French probably caused me to get called to the counselor and fall behind in classes.
Friday, September 20, 2024
Apartment
I didn't find out about the apartment..
They are supposed to contact me, text.. if not, then I will see about going back to the homeless shelter in due time, maybe start Monday then.
Race Based on Migration Patterns and the Sun and Snow...
Well, I may not be as White as African Americans because they were in cold climate longer.
I think Caucasians are just bouncing back and forth between France and Germany/Scandinavia.
Andre Rieu...
Andre Rieu is like Petra and gets mad at me for feeling like he said the things these people say he says all the time.
I have things to do, and one is going to be fighting this. I was gonna get ready for his next tour, come to think of it. I still will.
Pierre
So, what's private? Does Pierre have anything else to do other than being mad about his race to his dad?
Andre Rieu...
I see Pierre, and I said he wasn't his parents, but I guess it's Marjorie "on parade" when you see Pierre.
Is it gonna be important why Andre is always just busy protecting his family and shitting about them with you?
Dancers
Dancers don't think I have any talent with muscle or any form of physical fitness next to them.
Bingo
I was checking out the men's hands, and they looked small then big. I was comparing them to my dad.
US
No one cares what I say in Europe cuz my dad is from America, so when I use that side if you count my parents it came from there.
Mixed Race
Men who marry women of other races usually only want one, one pretty one that stands out...
People think mixes are weird for being mixed itself, not for what each race is they have.
Concerned About Andre Rieu and His People
It seems pointless to give him all that attention if it's always about his son.. Anyway, if you wanna know why I said something you need to ask I already explained enough from what you know.
Physical Therapy
I just returned, from physical therapy.
I just lifted weights with my hands and legs.
I might lift in my room after lunch and then go out and about in the nursing home.
I hope I get accepted to the apartment, or else I might start asking about the homeless shelter and going there, I guess October 2nd, as I get my Social Security Survivors Benefits money/"check" in my bank account by the 1st.
Apartment Searching?
If I don't get accepted to that apartment, probably will find out today, I may just go to a homeless shelter at the beginning of October. I have 1 month left, but it seems to hard to get accepted with my credit score, Fair.
Feeling Awake
I feel more awake this morning, may shower and stay up if possible and do an arm weights exercise for like 15 minutes or so.
Feeling Better
I exercised better and slept a lot, and my sore throat is feeling much better.
Today, I may find if I am accepted to the apartment I like and if I am can continue my job search. Otherwise, I'll have to scout around.
Bossiness
Someone who took my blood sugar, young like me, thinks she can boss me around and tell me I'm bad, like she's an adult and I'm a child. "That won't be necessary..."
Beach Blondes in Cleveland
The beach blondes in the Cleveland area are dumb and ditzy and think they can take liberty to do anything.
I just closed my door to annoy people being mean but not in a way they can say, and she tried to sound like she said, "Police." That reminds me of the one in the hospital in December who wouldn't listen when I said I was better and wanted to go home... I would up in the mental hospital and nursing home for 1/2 year.
"Problem Solved"
I ordered a bike horn and bell to annoy the residents and workers of the nursing home, in a civil way so they don't notice. They come Monday, or else I'd have to pay an extra $6.
I'll have to use the horn in my room, possibly with the door closed with my roommate away or awake. I can bring the bell around and see what happens. I'm not sure what else I could get, maybe some sticks or a Christmas bell, though a Christmas bell is too cheery for this.
Andre Rieu...
(38:06 minutes long)
It seems like all of a sudden he's got a lot of young people in it and some of their ego is "out of bounds." Nonetheless, they make bright music, sometimes or rather often. I wonder if they are physically very animate and therefore strong and in good shape.
He shows the orchestra/choir/solo-singers so much love, out of nowhere, with all those young people. He got so animate and dynamic and even "off the wall" in flow, displaying his love, as well. They are so carefree and happy go lucky, without a care in the world. I'm not sure if they try hard to impress or express themselves very much. Maybe, even a handful or a few could be American. I know at least one, a solo singer. She had become a topic of my fascination, even locally.
The soloist near the end in the red dress is so cool!...
Ashley...
My relationship with Ashley, which is that of a distant family, is probably different than that of with her friends and others.
No Joke
I don't think it's a joke to watch me in private like it matters only to abandon that it matters.
Issue
I don't want the reason people question me to be because they "can't believe" I can function and be a good girl, indeed. They don't question everybody else, like this. So, this is what happened when people watched me in private.
Family
It's sorta a family thing. I feel like I've disowned much of my surviving family for only paying attention to and finding cool Joni and Ashley.
Ashley?
Why is Ashley used to make us feel ashamed, ashamed for what especially? Does it bounce back on whoever imposed upon us?
I know people are racist to her, but it's used against me...
I don't like how my family has gotten in my way in the world. Even my parents gave me the silent treatment, and it was like I was trapped like a joke when I came home from college.
Thursday, September 19, 2024
Andre Rieu...
I had a good feeling when the little 16 year old girl who can't "eat..." turned to me like she needed me... It felt like sex, in a good way. I felt it like in the scope of the top to the tuck of my female inners sorta over it. towards the front. I felt like I just looked down and gave her a hug, and it was a little in form like Andre Rieu on the top. Maybe, you can even picture this.
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